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[eatmy]

[SATURDAY|AFTER SCHOOL]



...he's late.

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[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

/late indeed; he spots Sou and jogs over

.. I'd ask what this was about if I didn't already have a pretty good idea. You holdin' up OK?

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

*nods at Taka, running his hand through his hair and lets out frustrated sigh*

I honestly don't know how to feel about the situation, or why you're so curious on how it's going.

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

'Cause I happen to care about anybody involved, s'all. I guess .. I just wanna' be there for damage control, 'cause not everybody can have a happy ending in situations like these.

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

Care for anybody involved in weird love affairs? Because the dorm feels like one of those corny dating shows, and everyone's scrambling to be with anyone. It feels ridiculous, and some of us were just dragged in just because we're here.

...Taka, I know that everyone can wish for a happy ending and not get it. Sometimes it feels down right impossible to even think of a happy ending.

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

Well, t'be honest, I was talkin' about this one specifically. All the new kids, the quiet people I've never met, I can't really keep up with what everybody's doin'. .. A corny dating show, huh?

/semi-nervous fidget;

.. I guess I dunno' what to say to that.

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I'm willing to put money that someone has a betting pool in the school to see how the dorm will end up, judging on how the rumors are flying everywhere.

But enough about the dorm. Why are you so concerned with this one situation especially? It's not like Takeshi is involved.

...just say what you really believe in then.

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

Puttin' money on the existance of another bet, huh? There's irony for you.

.. N- nothin'. No reason, ok? I jus' am. An' if Takeshi was involved, somebody'd already be dead.

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

*doesn't exactly believe him but drops it*

Huh, you two are-- never mind. But still. This isn't thing that's happening isn't what imagined this 'crush' thing to be.

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

.. You ok?

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

...I don't know.

When was the first time you liked somebody?

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

.. Good question. T'be honest, I don't really know. I figure it was probably back in elementary school; just a student-teacher crush, y'know? Yadoumaru-sensei. I never even knew her first name. Hell, I don't even remember what was so great about her.

Why d'you ask?

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

I...ah.

This is my first time actually liking another person in a, ah, romantic sense.

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

/snickers a little, totally not trying to be an asshole omgsorry;

S'kinda cute. .. Jus' sorry it's goin' the way it's goin'.

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

I-I--! H-how is it cute?

W-what do you know about the situation?

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

Eh? .. I- I'unno! Just is!

Jus' that he has to be the most popular guy in school, y'know? S'gotta make it .. difficult.

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

I-I guess. *starting to think something was, well, off with Taka*

I...really picked a lousy time for this. Thank you hormones for becoming active now. There seems to be more than one issue involved though.

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

Y- yeah, see? Totally a common-knowledge-type deal, y'know?

Smooth, Taka. Great job. Totally manly save, right? Totally.

.. More than one, huh?

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

W-what? This thing is common knowledge now? O-oh man, Taka, how come you didn't tell me sooner?


I-- Yes, I think so. It's...not that hard to find the signs.

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

.. Wait, are we talkin' about the same thing?

The signs?.. O- of what? I guess it's probably better that you know more about this than I do, huh?

[ assuming, of course, that touya hasn't mentioned anything about the situation to him, which as far as i know he hasn't. ]

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

I assumed that everyone knows about this thing? *is getting confused*

W-what? No, I don't know about this romance thing. I just got the feeling he isn't interested in er, other guys. I mean, I thought my first was going to be far from something different-- ok, scratch that. I never even thought about anything romantic at all.

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

Well, I guess, in a way.. Hmm. /over-dramatic chin-scratch go!

.. Huh? What gave you that impression? Doesn't seem the type to be too concerned with gender, but I guess that's jus' my opinion. .. And dude. Everybody thinks of that kinda' thing sometimes, you don't gotta lie.

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

W-what? Are you really serious about it? *kinda panicking right now*

No, he seems to be the type who's fixated on one person only. *tries to shrug it off*

Ah, I don't remember any instances at this moment on when I actually liked someone romantically? I-I don't know, the only one I can really compare my experiences to before I came over here was my sister, and she's very...flaky.

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

You're really that worried, bro'? All the girls in school are talkin' about it.

.. Yeah, I guess, but-- .. Wait, you're serious? Well, I guess it ain't that weird, but.. Why Sanada?

[ uh, the common-knowledge thing taka is talking about is sou being cute. XD i assume that this is a completely lulz-tastic misunderstanding. ]

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

What? All the girls know? O-oh crap, even my sister?

I-I am serious, but is it really that wierd to not even think about romantic stuff...?

And I don't know why Sanada. I-it was just happened and, well, boom? *failing to explain his attraction so badly*

[Lololol, it's a totally cliched misunderstanding. ♥]

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

.. Well, I doubt your sister thinks about it too much, unless she's into that kinda' think or somethin'.

Eh, not really; I guess there are plenty of people that don't think too much about it, not that you'd guess in the dorm. .. Jus' happened, huh? 'Boom'?

/totally confused look

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

T-that would explain all the questions and things she's been trying to show me. H-how long has this been out?

A-are you sure? It seems that almost everyone our age is talking about stuff like this - at least, that's what I keep hearing?

I-I don't know, it just happened without me knowing? I-it's sucks, and I wish it didn't even happen at times... *can't help but sigh and let his shoulder slump*

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

.. Wait, so she seriously is? I'm not gonna lie, bro', to each their own, but that's .. kinda we-

...

Wait ..Are we even talkin' about the same thing anymore?

'N really, s'no big deal. It's not like you're some freak or somethin'. .. B- but hey! None of that, man; no gettin' all gloomy, y'got it? You ain't gonna win nobody over with a frown!
/cheesey thumbs-up!

You feel how you feel. There doesn't always have to be a reason to everything.
/slightly pained smile

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

...wait, I was talking about the stupid crush thing. What were you talking about?

I don't even know if I even want to win anyone, not with...whatever I'm doing right now. At least you don't have these problems, huh? *tries to smile back*


It just would be easier to know why, right? Then it'll be easier to let go.

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

.. N- nothin'. Not that, though, don't worry.

Eh? .. Heh, I have my own problems. Everybody does, y'know?

You really think so, huh? But don't y'think if y'knew why, you'd just be more attached?

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

Are you sure? It sounds like something else...

I-I know that everyone has to deal with their own problems. I was talking about this crush thing, stuff, shit, whatever it's called. *hoping Taka isn't involved in some kind of bizarro love pentagon*

It will just give me more reasons on why not to be attached? It's...kinda screwed up, I know.

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

I- it's not a big deal. Seriously.

.. Well .. Eh, nah, not worth bringin' up. That's not a big deal either, y'know? I didn't come here to talk about me. /totally blushing a little; laughs nervously

Y'know, you're a lot smarter than I am.

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

Alright? *lets it go ok*

I...think this talk is about the situation, right? To clarify stuff between you and me? So that means you're involved too.

N-no, I'm not. You probably react first before thinking? B-but that's a good thing!

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

.. I- if you say so. I guess it's kinda just one of those 'time-and-place' situations, y'know?

N- no way! You totally think about what you're doin', so you can do it right! I just get myself into trouble all the time.

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

You...don't have to say anything, if you don't want to. It's kind hard enough to admit you like someone to yourself, much less another person *tries to laugh*

Hahaha, I think a little too much on what I do. It's...not that fun, really. The Sanada thing was something I wasn't expecting. A-and you do not get into trouble all the time. You're helpful, fun, you care for others and you make people laugh...at least, that's what I think. Compared to you, I'm a wet blanket.

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

Right, right ... W- well here's a promise, ok? I'll tell you eventually. Maybe sooner, maybe later.

Oh, c'mon. I make people laugh.. I've heard that a lot. I'm glad that I can make people happy, but it kinda' feels like nobody can take me seriously. You, though--people respect you. You're smart, kind, I meant it when I said all the girls in school are talkin' about you, y'know? I do appreciate it, though. You totally aren't a wet blanket.

More like an awesome blanket. With like. I'unno, awesome phoenix wings or somethin'. Yeah!! A flying blanket!

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

Well, just when you're sure and ok with it? And I promise you I won't do anything stupid if you do tell me.

People do take you seriously, it's just that you don't see it when you're around them. I know Touya and your brother does, and possibly Mitsuru-san. I don't kow about the others, since I'm not around them as much...but I know that I take you seriously-- a-and what exactly are the girls saying about me? I-It's really different from what we're talking about, right?

Phoenix wings? Flying blanket? *thinks of a blanket with wings attached to it and fluttering about* H-huh, can it be a magical flying blanket?

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

.. Right. It's me doin' somethin' stupid that I'm worried about.

Y- you really think so? I know Touya does, 'n Takeshi, but that's .. different, I'unno. Mitsuru, though? I doubt it.

.. It really means a lot, comin' from you. Thanks, man. W- wait, what? Whaddaya mean, what're they sayin' about you? S- see for yourself! I ain't sayin' it!

And magical flyin' blanket works.

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

I-- how are you going to do something stupid? A-ah, that wasn't a good question. How about if I stop you if you do something stupid then? Does that work?

Yeah, I honestly do think so. Plus the fact that most of the members are underclassman, so it's like a necessity that they have to respect you. But that doesn't mean they just respect you for that! And Mitsuru-san is always hard to read though, so you may have to ask her yourself.

Anytime, Taka-- h-huh? H-how can I see for myself? I-if I ask one of the girls from the dorm, they'll think I'm some kind of pervert or something. ...a-ah, so you do know? Is it something unpleasant?

I prefer magical carpets, but blankets are alright.

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

.. I'd appreciate that.

Man, I hate that--I can't stand it, forcin' the younger kids to treat me different, just 'cause I'm older. I hope it isn't just 'cause of that, like you said. I try, but .. I'unno, sometimes I feel like I'm tryin' to hard, and that definitely ain't the way to get somethin' done.

W- well .. Eh, not like it's a huge deal--I was talkin' about how all the girls in school think you're cute, y'know? Luckily you ain't got stalkers like Sanada, though--I don't think so, at least.

Ehh? Carpets are lame, they're stuck in one place all the time and don't do nothin' but lay on the floor, y'know?

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

Mhmm.

There's nothing that you can do to make them change their mind when there's an age difference during school. And there's a limit on how much you try, like you said, but if don't do anything, nothing will change, right? S-so it's a good thing you're trying! I guess I'll have to keep an eye on you more frequently, huh?

Blankets are no better; you just wrap yourself and cuddle with it.

E-eh?! W-what? C-cute? Why are they saying that? I-I-- T-that-- w-why can't it be someone else?

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

.. I'unno, I guess.. It just sucks, y'know? Right! Totally, man! You better be tryin' too, huh? W- wait, wha?

No better? What're you talkin' about? You got somethin' against cuddling? /totally still has his baby blanket, don't laugh;

.. Huh? 'Cause it's true, I guess? Why're you gettin' all worked up?

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

I think I am? Or I hope so then, since the new members are still coming in. It's hard to keep up, you know? And some people are hard to get along with...are you holding up well? Ah, in case you get in trouble. I don't want anything bad happening to you, or anyone else I know.

I-I'm not used to cuddling? It feels...I'm just not used to it? W-wait, I'm just saying blankets are like carpets, only more flexible. *knows his sister kept their teddy bears from when they were younger somewhere in her room*

I-- it-- ...it feels weird. I figure no one is going to talk about someone like me, and I was ok with that. And then the rumors started and it wasn't alright anymore. Does that make any sense?

[shelteringly.livejournal.com]

Hard to get along with? Like who? Haven't really met anybody like that, y'know? I think Aragaki was pissed at me for a while, but that's about it. .. A- ah, uh.. W- well.. Y- you don't gotta look out for me, ok? If anythin', I'll be lookin' out for you too, alright?

.. Well, t'be honest, the most cuddlin' experience I ha-- Why're we talking about this? B- blankets are cool. End of story.

Wait, what? Whaddaya' mean, 'someone like you'? Doesn't make any sense at all!

[ashenverity.livejournal.com]

There was this one guy who was really angry when I asked about the tea, and then there's Jin, but he's a different story all together. Still, most of the kids here are nice. Your brother for instance is a pretty good kid, even with his self-esteem issues.

...I am more curious than amused right now, but I still think blankets and carpets are the same? I mean, in terms of usage.

Yes, it does! I'm...me and I have no clue why they talk about me. And people are more interested in talking about you anyway.